CHICKEN CHICKEN
Saturday, November 11, 2006
its only 10.13am and im blogging. i cant stand it anymore lah. my mum is going to band me from going to the gym. my dad is gong to support her all the way, most probably, he's just jealous my peanuts are getting larger. i cried last night, you know, moodswings. ((: its kinda funny now when i say that. but it really wasnt last night. tend to get mood changes in the night. so yah.. told my mum i couldnt sleep. then she was like, go lie down and try to sleep. i did that. but still couldnt sleep. then my dad came in the picture. kaypo lah he. he was scolding me last night. cause i couldnt sleep. unreasonable lah. ok. messaged lisa. then dunno why i just stopped messaging. haha. yah. managed to sleep at about 2. yah. im like damn tired in the morning when i woke up. i couldnt even open my eye. my dad thinks im afraid of becoming fat, thats why i dont take carbs at night. what the fuck lah. take carbs at night for? dont need the energy already. and on top of that, i ate chicken rice after gym, so i wasnt hungry. he thinks otherwise. he wants me to follow his way. cause you haven seen the way my dad cooks. the amount of oil he uses. our family uses like 2 litres of oil in like what? 2 weeks?just imagine the oil. see already eeyer like fuck already. so he's probably angry cause i dont eat his food or something. and you know what he said? i dont care whether you eat my food or not. the food is there, want to eat then eat. dont want, done. fine lah. so i dont eat. but its like so obvious he wants me to eat lah. nowdays all gym have aircons right? then he said the air-con is the one that wont let the sweat comes out so.....blah blah blah... all the nonsense. he also said im girl and all that kind of stuff. the purpose of me going gym is not bodybuilding. its just fitness. im so pissed. thats why im blogging it out. fuck fuck fuck fuck. sorry for all the vulgarities. i dont know what to do now. they say im disturbing them at night. wth lah. is like only last night?! i was lying down on my bed the past few nights even though i couldnt sleep. going to them was the last straw. so just imagine how many days i haven been sleeping well. its becaue of the bed. i think. i could sleep peacfully on the sofa. so yah.. just ate cornflakes and bread. im really pissed. urghhs. i just keep thinking about all those fucked up stuff. im really really pissed. really. i know im going to get band already. thats for sure. i think. then next, i will not be allowed to go out. much less get my handphone confiscated. i'll have to go church with my mum today. then she'll be lecturing me all the way. and all the nonsense. and so on and so forth. i told them to bring me to the doctor. they refuse. then what else can i do? they dont want to bring me to the doctor, and they just ask me to lie down. i'll get damn restless. so yah. there was a time when i couldnt sleep also, went to the kitchen to make a cup of milo. maybe something warm could make me sleep.my dad says im disturbing him also. then he'll start lecuring in the middle of the night. sometimes even scold till my sis wakes up. i disturd him, he says i disturb. fine. i dont. make milo, also say i disturb. what does he wants sia... well, im tired, but i'll still go to the gym later. maybe to really tire myself out so i can sleep tonight. but i hope i will be able to step out of the house. so yah.. wont be talking to my dad for the time being until he stops his nonsense. and after this incident, i bet my mum will tell someone about all this and that person will be like spreading things sbout me. i hate that. it happen to me twice before. she told some teachers when i was in primary school, so yah. then everyone seems to know what happen but the wrong version of it. so it kinda fucked up lah. people saying untrue things about someone else. its damn pissing. seroiusly, i wont feel like coming back into this house after stepping out later. bringing my sleeping bag along, where can i go? i'll most probably be hugging my sleeping bag and not sleeping. i feel so much better after blogging it out. this entry is so damn, damn, long. alrights. im done here. time to eat. bye
i just came back from church. quite a long time ago. know something? im still allowed to go to the gym. (((: yay. she suddenly changed her mind. see, it wasnt my fault that i cant sleep. i left for the gym at about 12 plus. it rained heavily suddenly. so i was stuck in the gym.talked to chris and clarence while waiting for the rain to stop. then got a call from my mum, asking me to get back home. gotta go church lah. thats why. my bike tire punchet. LOL. my dad pumped it till the pump broke. ((: funny. went to church, i paid attention. for the first time.all thanks to chris. its not really THAT BORING after all. i went to get my own groceries at ntuc. HAHAHAHA. wanted to get beef. but i didnt had enough. its more likely my mum said no. ok. so got everything, then walked back home. im gonna get the josh groban album!!!!! if i save. hahaha. his voice is like W-O-W. damn nice lah. im gonna try to save. im gonna try to s-a-v-e. urghhs. haha. ok. im done. bye and goodnight.(((: